so my legs feel huge right now. the top of them rub together when i walk and i have a tummy again. and i can't see my collarbones which is really traumatic. I feel like I've failed!!!!! UGH. Must get skinny must get skinny!!! I'm at like 190 so which that means I had lost down to 186 but now i gained 4 pounds... fuck!!!! I gotta get to 177 by October 23 which is my FIRST weigh in date and I can't be over it because it will just ruin it~!!!!! I need help!!!!!!!!!

If anyone has Twitter follow me.... http://twitter.com/barbie_krys06 and we can help with anything.... I've figured it out if I lose 10 pounds for the next 8 month which will be June for my birthday I will be at 107 which is perfect to me!!! Oh and I need all the support and advice for all! Thanks so much!!! My weigh in dates are:
October 23-
November 24-
December 25-
January 26-
February 27-
March 28-
April 29-
May 30-

So, starting weight is 187 and my ending goal is 107!!! I am gonna start working out and just doing better and eating less now!!!!!
<3, me

THE LONGEST GIRL SURVEY EVER!
-don't be shy, fill it all out.-
title it "girl confessions"

1. Do you sleep in your bra?
yep.

2. Do you sleep with socks on?
no

3. Would you rather sleep alone or with someone else?
someone else(:

4. Do you enjoy drama?
not at all.

5. Are you a girly girl?
most of the time.

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
my boyfriend, Geoff this morning before he left for work

7. Small or large purses?
big purses.

8. Are you short?
kinda 5'4" wanna be 5'7"

9. Do you like somebody?
I'm in love with him:)

10. Does your Facebook password have to do with a boy?
nahh

11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
yes! i hate dirty socks

12. Do you think you’re conceited?
little bit but everyone is

13. Do you dress up on Halloween?
i try too

14. Are you double jointed?
i wish lol

15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
many, many places. lol a barn in the hay loft would be my number 1 I think

16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
not yet but I'm sure when he gets home he will

18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
no not really

19. How many guys will read this just because it says- Girl Confessions?
none

[x] I do wear make up.
[x] I have cried at a movie theater.
[x] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.
[x] I get jealous. =/
[x] I think Johnny Depp is sexy.
[xxxx] I love to laugh.
[x] I like rap. only some rappers.
[x] I like techno.
[x] I like country.
[x] I carry a purse.
[x] I'd be lost without my computer. fer sure.
[x]I own a Spice Girls CD.
[x] I own a Britney Spears CD.
[x] I get bored watching football.
[x] I think guys are confusing.
[x] I have/had a piercing other than my ears.

Come on ladies, be truthful!

1. What color is the bra your wearing?
champagne

2. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
light but not too light

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
nope.

4.What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them?
make me laugh, be nice, and be cute. lol like me

5. Do you have a best friend?
a few really good ones:)

6. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yup but its all back together now(: thanfully to my amazing boyfriend who put it back together

7. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
yes,and I have my boobs done, but want full body lipo and i wish my feet weren't so wide not sure if it's fixable but who knows lol

8. Do you like your life?
its just peachy right now

10. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boy from you?
not sure but maybe

11. Have you ever jumped into a pool with your clothes on?
been tossed in

12. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
about even I think

13. How long have you had a facebook?
um a very long time..... 2006

14. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
yup. they deserved it too

15. What are your biggest fears?
the dark, spiders

16. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
omgosh. haven't we all

17. Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
its annoying and frustrating

18. Do you believe in the saying “once a cheater, always a cheater?"
most of the them that's very true

19. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
..yes?

20. Do you ever wish you were famous?
yeah

21. Are you currently missing someone?
of course but he will be home soon

THIS GUY OR THAT GUY? PICK ONE

Cowboy or Gangster?
gangster. if i had to choose

Preppy or Punk/Goth?
preppy

Face or Body?
can I pick both?

Good cook or take you out a lot?
good cook, cuz i cant

Sweet or Sexy?
sweet

Contacts or Glasses?
contacts

DO IT, its a girl survey.

01. Eyeliner or Mascara?
mascara

02. Louis vuitton or dooney & bourke?
louis vuitton

03. American eagle or Hollister?
hollister

04. Pumps or flats?
pumps

05. Skirts or pants?
pants

06. Socks or leggings?
neither

07. Hoodies or jackets?
hoodies

08. Heels or sneakers?
heels

09. Straight or curly hair?
straight

10. Hoop or dangling earrings?
studs

11. Do you think you're pretty, honestly?
i would be, if i was skinnier and did my hair/makeup (lose 70 pounds)

12. Boots or Flip Flops?
flip flops

13. White or black?
Black.

14. Victoria's secret or bath and body works?
vickys

5. Smoothies or lattes?
smoothies

16. Diet or regular sodas?
Diet.

17. Water or daiquiris?
Water.

18. Pearls or diamonds?
diamonds

19. Lemonade or iced tea?
lemonade

20. Mary-Kate or Ashley Olsen?
both(:

21. Will you get drunk when you celebrate your birthday of this question number?
hell fucking yes! I sure did and it was a blast

22. iPod or cell phone?
iPhone:)

23. Friends or family?
family- my friends are family

24. Lip gloss or lip stick?
gloss

25. Manicure or pedicures?
both

26. Would you rather shop with one best friend or go bowling with lots of friends?
shop

27. Tank tops or beaters?
either

28. Tiffany’s or Chanel?
Chanel.

29. love or peace?
love

30. Sunglasses or purses?
this is like deciding between an arm or a leg. i just cant

IN A GUY...

Funny or Serious?
funny

Romantic or Daredevil?
romantic

Dark Eyes or Light Eyes?
light

Long Hair or Short Hair?
either. whatever works on them

Curly Hair or Straight Hair?
a little of both

Clean-cut or Rough?
clean-cut

Basketball Player or Football Player?
either

Smoker or Non-smoker?
non

Drunk or Sober?
sober

Druggie or Clean?
as long as its not extreme, dont care

Has a Motorcycle or Has a Sports Car?
sports car

Player or Loyal?
Loyal.

Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?
yup

Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
i have a lot. lol some of them are a yes, but some are a no

If you ever want to live to see another day, you're forced to snort cocaine, would you do it?
sure

If you woke up in one of the Saw movies, do you think you could survive?
i dunno. i can always figure those movies out. so maybe.

When is the last time you were in a photo booth taking pictures with a friend?
looooong time ago

Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided seeing them?
HAHA yeah

On average what do you think you cry about the most?
anger. when i get frustrated i cry

Who was the last guy you talked to?
Geoff

Do you think best friends can be replaced?
no way

Does the last person you held hands with mean a lot?
yeah.

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life ?
hopefully

What friend do you tell the most?
my journal people would think I need serious help:(

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
mom? idk

Where's the weirdest place you've changed clothes?
not sure.

Are you going anywhere next summer?
not sure yet

Are you waiting for anyone's call or text right now?
nahhh

Are you shy?
not around people i know

Are you talkative?
YES

Do you secretly like someone?
not really

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
yes

How is life going for you right now?
good. so busy though

Do you trust people easily?
no

Do you give out second chances easily?
no. yes. depends. lol

Do you smile a lot?
yeah

One thing you're looking forward to?
losing 70 pounds by June 2010

How do you feel about change?
eh its ok I guess

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
all the time

Are you happy?
yes

Do you prefer to be around people or by yourself?
depends on my mood

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
for longer then most. but in the end i think i would die

TEN HOW'S:

How did you get your worst scars?
getting hit right under my nose with a boomerang lol

How did you celebrate your last birthday?
with my boyfriend drinking and the casino:) 21 rocks!!!

How are you feeling at this moment?
tired and cold

How did your night go last night?
FUN!

How did you do in high school?
eh could have been better

How did you get the shirt you're wearing?
bought it from Victoria's Secret with the shorts also

How often do you see your best friend?
not as much since I moved

How much money did you spend last month?
not much

How old do you want to be when you get married?
in my twenties

How old will you be on your next birthday?
22

TEN WHAT'S:

Time you got up this morning?
10:30

Your mothers name?
Dora

What did you do last weekend?
stayed home & did stuff(:

What did you last cry over?
i dont remember

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
music, xanga, friends.

What did you have for breakfast?
didnt.

EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:

Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
who hasnt

Have you ever had your heart broken?
yes

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
all the time

Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
yup

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
yes

SEVEN WHO’S:

Who was the last person you saw?
my boyfriend this morning

Who was the last person you texted?
Geoff like 5 minutes ago

Who was the last person you hung out with?
Abbie yesterday

Who was the last person to call you?
um, Geoff

Who did you last hug?
Geoff

Who was the last person you said "i love you" to?
Geoff

SIX WHERE’S:

Where does your best friend live?
AL

Where did you last go?
Dillards to try and get a job

Where do you go to school?
College but transferring to UGA very soon

Where did you sleep last night?
in my bed

FIVE DO/DOES:

Do you like someone right now?
yeah my man

Do you think anyone likes you?
he better love me lol

Do you ever wish you were someone else?
a lot of the time

Does the future scare you?
not really. im more excited by it

FOUR WHY’S:

Why are you friends with your friend(s)?
stupid question, because i love them

Why did you get a facebook?
everyone at my new school had it

Why did your parents give you the name you have?
because she did

Why are you doing this survey?
thought it would be fun and I should be doing homework but this is easier

THREE IF’S:

If you could have one super power what would it be?
be invisible and transformation

If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
yes

If you were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring?
cell phone

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:

Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
never.

Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
yes

ONE LAST QUESTION

Are you happy with your life right now?
YES